Wednesday, August 13, 2008
sad to say goodbye to blogger. but i'm moving on. you can find my domain here (http://hibisc.us) and the blog here (http://hibisc.us/blog).
posted by Mar at 4:03 PM
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
i feel horrible. i'm sore from working out, and absolutely exhaused. i'm sleep deprived, and haven't been eating well. i'm achy and just feel like shit.
i swear, everything that could go wrong is going wrong. now, the biggest problem of all; the condo sale might not go through. i must admit, i had a small sense of relief because there is so much i have to do. besides the packing, i'm trying to coordinate power of attorney, setting up transportation to get my shit out, transferring insurance around, moving gyms, getting all the repairs coordinated, etc etc. so much i can't remember it all. on top of that, i'm trying to finish up this quarter of school and register for next quarter. i'm trying to keep up my exercise. i'm trying to plan for vacation and buy things and get ready. it is so overwhelming i just want to hide and cry. i know it probably sounds stupid.. oh why can't she handle it.... well, FUCK. I CAN'T.
i swear, everything that could go wrong is going wrong. now, the biggest problem of all; the condo sale might not go through. i must admit, i had a small sense of relief because there is so much i have to do. besides the packing, i'm trying to coordinate power of attorney, setting up transportation to get my shit out, transferring insurance around, moving gyms, getting all the repairs coordinated, etc etc. so much i can't remember it all. on top of that, i'm trying to finish up this quarter of school and register for next quarter. i'm trying to keep up my exercise. i'm trying to plan for vacation and buy things and get ready. it is so overwhelming i just want to hide and cry. i know it probably sounds stupid.. oh why can't she handle it.... well, FUCK. I CAN'T.
Monday, August 11, 2008
a funny exchange with a friend...
[11:14] sxtxixtxcxh: it's like we're the opposite of an affair.
[11:14] mfransonakagi: ha. but, what is that? like.. anti-lovers?
[11:14] mfransonakagi: like.. i actually hate you?
[11:14] sxtxixtxcxh: nothing really going on, but publicly it sounds like it.
[11:14] sxtxixtxcxh: lol yeah
[11:15] mfransonakagi: hah. i suppose it is kinda like that.
[11:16] sxtxixtxcxh: like i realized some people don't follow as many people as me.. so my posts end up concentrated on twitter..
[11:17] sxtxixtxcxh: so i'm this horrible womanizer
[11:17] mfransonakagi: this is true
[11:17] sxtxixtxcxh: lol
[11:17] mfransonakagi: who says it's horrible though?
[11:17] sxtxixtxcxh: i'm dr. horrible.
[11:17] sxtxixtxcxh: i have a ph.d. in horribleness
[11:18] mfransonakagi: that's advanced horribleness.
[11:24] mfransonakagi: i'm so going to refer to you as my anti-affair now.
[11:24] sxtxixtxcxh: lol
[11:25] sxtxixtxcxh: all the downsides of an affair with none of the fun!
[11:25] sxtxixtxcxh: Jesus Approved™
[11:14] sxtxixtxcxh: it's like we're the opposite of an affair.
[11:14] mfransonakagi: ha. but, what is that? like.. anti-lovers?
[11:14] mfransonakagi: like.. i actually hate you?
[11:14] sxtxixtxcxh: nothing really going on, but publicly it sounds like it.
[11:14] sxtxixtxcxh: lol yeah
[11:15] mfransonakagi: hah. i suppose it is kinda like that.
[11:16] sxtxixtxcxh: like i realized some people don't follow as many people as me.. so my posts end up concentrated on twitter..
[11:17] sxtxixtxcxh: so i'm this horrible womanizer
[11:17] mfransonakagi: this is true
[11:17] sxtxixtxcxh: lol
[11:17] mfransonakagi: who says it's horrible though?
[11:17] sxtxixtxcxh: i'm dr. horrible.
[11:17] sxtxixtxcxh: i have a ph.d. in horribleness
[11:18] mfransonakagi: that's advanced horribleness.
[11:24] mfransonakagi: i'm so going to refer to you as my anti-affair now.
[11:24] sxtxixtxcxh: lol
[11:25] sxtxixtxcxh: all the downsides of an affair with none of the fun!
[11:25] sxtxixtxcxh: Jesus Approved™
he was right. he said that moving would have some emotional components but i brushed that aside. i felt like i was over it. this was just the final step. i'm running on 3 hours of sleep. i packed for hours last night, and then ran a little over 6 miles this morning. it's fumes, i tell you. nothing but fumes. so, packing up... i threw out a lot of stuff; i didn't know what else to do. what do you do when you're moving on but everything reminds you or is tied to your previous life the past 5 or 6 years? i'll keep a few things but mostly, it's just taking a deep breath and packing up and moving on. there is some sadness in it that i didn't see coming.
Saturday, August 9, 2008
life has been incredibly busy. i've not blogged and so i'm really behind.
the condo sold!! this has been a year in the making. the process has been difficult and is sucking a lot of time and energy from me but it's so important. the thought of being in my own place with my kitty is just amazing. i can't wait. i can live normally again. i will be living downtown for the first time and i am so excited. the problem is, the condo is closing while i'm on vacation so i'm planning for vacation and packing up my life at the same time. it feels so overwhelming.
this quarter of school is almost over. i did good, i got a 4.0 in my class. i'm signing up for anatomy & physiology 2 for fall quarter.
family is ok. i've hit some rough spots. mostly surrounding the amount of time i spend with them and balancing that with the rest of my life. they're not ready to move on from my divorce and are not really able to accept it right now and that makes things hard.
i got a promotion at work! it has been a while coming but i'm glad. i do work hard and i'm happy it's paid off. literally.
in my personal life, things are wonderful. i believe progress is very important. that said, there's a thin line between moving too fast and standing still. so, i try to balance it. we try to balance it. to speak to progress, for me, something that might not seem like a big deal has really made an impact on me as of recent. i have a key. perhaps temporarily or whatever, but i have a key. it seems like a big step; i'm not sure why. but, it means a lot to me. and, it makes me glow.
i'm off to zoka to have some coffee and read. good night. sorry for the short.
the condo sold!! this has been a year in the making. the process has been difficult and is sucking a lot of time and energy from me but it's so important. the thought of being in my own place with my kitty is just amazing. i can't wait. i can live normally again. i will be living downtown for the first time and i am so excited. the problem is, the condo is closing while i'm on vacation so i'm planning for vacation and packing up my life at the same time. it feels so overwhelming.
this quarter of school is almost over. i did good, i got a 4.0 in my class. i'm signing up for anatomy & physiology 2 for fall quarter.
family is ok. i've hit some rough spots. mostly surrounding the amount of time i spend with them and balancing that with the rest of my life. they're not ready to move on from my divorce and are not really able to accept it right now and that makes things hard.
i got a promotion at work! it has been a while coming but i'm glad. i do work hard and i'm happy it's paid off. literally.
in my personal life, things are wonderful. i believe progress is very important. that said, there's a thin line between moving too fast and standing still. so, i try to balance it. we try to balance it. to speak to progress, for me, something that might not seem like a big deal has really made an impact on me as of recent. i have a key. perhaps temporarily or whatever, but i have a key. it seems like a big step; i'm not sure why. but, it means a lot to me. and, it makes me glow.
i'm off to zoka to have some coffee and read. good night. sorry for the short.
Monday, July 28, 2008
oh yes, i hate work today. i'm convinced some people that work at real want me to have a heart attack and die at my desk. fuckers.
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
it's an acoustic type of music day.
i wish there was a blogger app for iphone. i don't want to switch to wordpress but they sure do make it appealing.
i wish there was a blogger app for iphone. i don't want to switch to wordpress but they sure do make it appealing.