my king size bed feels lonely, most of the time. like today.
right now, as i fall into somewhat new daily and weekly routines, i realize that the only thing consistent about it is the presence of spontaniety (sp?). i am adjusting to how i want to spend my time and balancing my individuality with my desire to be with others. i think i've hit a good balance, at least for the time being.
i'm struggling at work, again. the biggest difficulty arises in the fact that, i really just don't like some people. i don't like my boss. maybe it's petty and juvenile but i don't care for his personality, his mannerisms, the way he talks, and the way he looks. add that to his lack of professionalism and you've got a recipe that really makes my blood boil. it makes me feel bad that sometimes, i really can be obnoxious and hostile towards him, because i just can't hold it in. i know i should be above that, but it can be hard. i'm stubbon and really think i deserve to work for better.
things on a personal level are much less negative. in fact, i'd call them good. i've been doing a lot of thinking, and although things are not perfect or perfectly clear, they are evolving. i need motion, preferrably in the positive direction .. but i can learn from either.
posted by Mar at 8:43 PM