I am not digging how today is starting out. I try hard, and being analytical helps, to really understand my decisions before I make them. Thus, mostly preventing any regret from creeping into my conscious. However, despite all I think I could ever do, I have days where I question things. Where I wonder. Today is one of those. I woke up with this overwhelming feeling of 'how the fuck did I get to this place?'. Did all the changes I've made in the past year really amount to anything? Am I really happier? Am I headed in the right direction?
By tomorrow, I'll be back to living moment to moment. But, I can't help but reflect sometimes and maybe it's not a bad thing. Who knows. Nothing feels very concretely correct right now.
posted by Mar at 7:55 AM