back. so soon, yes. so, taking a little help from the.ethical.slut, i am trying to own my feelings. everything i feel is due to me - no one else MAKES me feel as i do. this is easier said than done, but i find, the more i remind myself of it, the more i come to really believe it and feel it at my core. it is somewhat comforting to this way, because it means that there is always the possiblity and the ability - to feel better. i'm not waiting on anyone, i'm not dependent on anyone to get there.
i found this book called, 'how to sleep alone in a king-sized bed'. it's a memoir about divorce. the title is so fitting; i've struggled with the king-sized bed thing many nights. so, i'll read this book.. maybe it'll shed some light on how to get past some of the struggles i am now facing. i'm not over this, that i know. eventhough i've lived the same way for the past months, this feels different. and, it's scary and it feels lonely. it feels like no one understands, nor really gets the difficulty of moving forward.
posted by Mar at 3:50 PM