so, what have i done this week? i've thought. i've thought about things, as everyone does at a crossroads. on a professional level, i've thought about going back to school; i've thought about moving within my company, i've thought about switching professions. on a personal level, i've thought about taking up new hobbies; i've thought about leaving seattle; i've thought about how i spend my time; i've thought about my relationships and which are valuable and need to be embraced and which suck energy from me. i'll admit, i don't often come to any quick conclusions, which, for me, is a good thing. since, i tend to act spontaneously if given the opportunity. that being said, with big decisions, i tend to analyze and weigh options carefully. and, there are some risks i am not willing to take - risks that would involve being careless about money or relationships or my job.
i've felt very sheltered lately though. i've realized how many experiences i've not had, how many things i am not knowledgable about, how many places i have not seen, how many skills i lack. this sounds negative. it's not really.. it's more realization that i am at a beginning and have a wide open space to fill. so much so, that it's hard to know where to start.
one thing i know i should focus on, is dealing with, and struggling through, things and situations that make me uneasy. this is difficult. but, i want to get there.
i've found this a good opportunity to re-evaluate my diet and my exercise as well. i recently saw some pictures of myself, and was shocked, essentially, at how i looked. i looked nice. i looked comfortable in my weight. that is hard for me to see from my own perspective. additionally, being in recent company who shares a love for food and good sensibility about eating well has helped me tremendously. so yeah, i don't know where all of this is going. but i do know that this week is important for me. it's important that i get through it and that i come to peace with it.
posted by Mar at 8:12 PM