what do i do when i struggle? i want to run. i have overwhelming urges that i fight. but, they always seem to pass. never indefinitely though, just until i feel the twinge again. perhaps something about my personality will always allow this dichotomy to exist. there is nothing horrifying about it, as long as i can manage it.
Escape is so pervasive....
This week returning from vacation brings this home....
I found my problems, still here, unchanged.