i'm obsessed with these little vanilla creme cookies at work. i was staring at the vending machine and i resisted and bought the pretzles. go me.
sometimes, little things make all the difference. here's todays. for the not-so-recent past, i was a wife, and i got used to being referred to as such. before that, i was a fiance for a good period of time. it's been a long time since i've been a girlfriend. there's something so playful and lightheared that passes through me and jolts my heart a bit when i read that word - and only because of the source from which it comes.
so, otherwise, i am well. i had a bad day yesterday, and i freaked out a bit. i'm still working through some things. i think i have a better support system than i realized. sometimes, i think i'm hesitant to use it. one thing i'm working on is the balance (and defining the limits) of being self sufficient and independent, and still enjoying and wanting to turn to my significant other. i mean, if i was completely independent, i would not need a relationship - i want the relationship to compliment me and i'm trying to figure out what that is. i am super self conscious about people having space in a relationship, and not becoming needy (me or others). on the other hand, if i never let anyone completely in or let them help me when i need it, i think i'm depriving myself of the good parts of the relationship. so, this is a work in progress.
today was a good day. the boyfriend and i are getting out of town this weekend and going to winthrop. it should be relaxing, and hopefully we'll get to do some hiking. otherwise, we interviewed a dude today who is going to be a *perfect* fit in our department. i am excited! i hope it works out for him; he seems like a keeper. i have to work late today to make up for going to see indiana jones this afternoon. it's ok though; i wanted to jailbreak my phone tonight and go shopping. but, i'm not sure there will be time for all that, and laundry/packing, and the 2-hour season finale of grey's anatomy.
Thursday, May 22, 2008
posted by Mar at 4:23 PM
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